Letters to Ruby #3

Dear Ruby,

You've been sick for the last couple weeks.* You have no idea how much it hurts my heart. Times like these remind me of just how little and fragile you are. Sometimes I forget because you've grown so much from the tiny baby you used to be. You're learning so many new things and your personality has grown so big that I sometimes forget you're still so small.

For the last few nights we've had you sleep in our bed. It's easier for me to keep an eye on you that way. As I lay beside your little body and hold your hand in mine I have to remind myself to take a mental snapshot of this feeling. Your teeny hand can barely wrap all the way around my finger but you hold on so tight. When I'm old and grey I'll still remember what it's like to have your tiny little fist clasped around my finger. I will remember staying awake just so I can hear you breathing next to me and resting my hand on your little chest to feel it rise and fall. I will remember crying with you when you're sick and what it feels like to have your fuzzy little head nuzzled against my neck.

This is what it feels like to have a baby. I will forever be your mama and you will forever be my baby girl. I love you more than my heart can hold.

Love,

Mom

*Ruby has reflux and had an allergic reaction to her formula plus she hasn't been eating like she's supposed to. She's slowly getting back to her old self again but we'll be glad when all of this is behind us. Please keep us in your prayers